Saturday, November 21, 2020

Will It Ever End?

The Covid Cloud continues to loom and its effects are beginning to hit closer to home. My heart is so, so heavy for those friends that we've lost and I continue to pray for those that are struggling against this awful virus.  A very good friend of mine that I had gone to school with since elementary passed away last week. Wayne's boss that hired him at UPS over twenty-five years ago passed away last Sunday. My brother has decided not to come home for Thanksgiving or Christmas and for the first time in my life, Thanksgiving is "on hold." Lord, when will it end?

There have been increasing numbers of Covid cases in our area just like everywhere else. The Mother Ship has upgraded her visitation policy once again and rumors are that our state will return to Phase 2. I was shocked to find out when I returned to work from a long weekend that my staff and I are to begin working from home once again. I have an employee that retires at the end of December. There will be no retirement party.

I silently cussed myself for becoming complacent in a Covid World. Although our family wears masks and practices hand hygiene, we've been a little more laid back in our going and doing. Alise started basketball games this week and there is no social distancing, but what do you expect at a basketball game? I am pretty sure they will not finish out the season (and for the first time ever, we're 2 and 0!). 

God continues to speak through people in my life. I had dinner with a friend last night and we talked at length about all the craziness. Her pastor had said (about the election), what if God is using all this chaos to bring people to salvation? Now, I know that God can take hopeless situations and bring good, and I've honestly thought the same thing about using this year as a way to draw people to him, but for some reason when she said those words last night, the truth hit me so hard. I was stunned, actually, and thought about that moment until late into the night. 

I am so sad and weary of all that is going on in our world. I no longer watch the news because I don't trust the media. Our own government is lying to us! And I know that my hope and trust do not belong to a President or the things of this world, yet it is so hard sometimes to be courageous in my faith and to press on. We've been studying Abraham in my BSF class and the timing couldn't be more appropriate.  Abraham was known as a man of faith, but even his wavered from time to time when he couldn't see God's promise. It was a step by step faith.  As a Christian, I know my hope is secure but yet I still have to ENDURE. And I think that's where my heart is right now. I'm simply tired of enduring. 

But for now, with the Thanksgiving week upon us - whether we actually celebrate it or not! - I choose to not think about the things that I can't control and the sadness that I feel and be THANKFUL. Thankful that I have a Savior, that when I can't see His hand, I can trust His heart. 


Hi there, I'm Laura, I'm the happiest wife, the loudest cheer mom, and the craziest girlfriend you'all ever have, I'm a Southern Belle living in a Southern world!


  1. Agree it needs to end! First in line for the vaccine here.

  2. Oh Laura, you put into words so beautifully what is on my heart. And you are right; we are secure but we MUST ENDURE. I've been asking myself for the last 2 years, how much more, Lord, how much more. The only thing I know is that each day I will put one foot in front of the other and keep going.
    Love you friend!

  3. Excellent post! Great words, friend!

  4. Thank you for sharing so beautifully what so many of us are feeling. Hope it is a great Thanksgiving week for you!