Last summer, it finally hit me that my metabolism was changing. I walked all summer in the 5AM hot temps and humidity and the scale wouldn't budge, even though I was also eating less. And it ticked me off!
And this summer, I have diagnosed myself with peri-menopause. I don't believe I'm full blown, but I'm certainly in the beginning stages. And like the good patient that I am, I haven't consulted my doctor, but I have done my research. I even checked out a book at the library called, The Change Before The Change, so that makes it official. Official research with an official diagnosis. Ha! Throw in a little Pinterest research, too!
You may be thinking that I'm a little young for peri-menopause, but from what I've read - ahem! "researched" - this particular phase can begin as far as ten years prior to actual menopause.
I said I was going to remember what lead me down this road of self diagnosing, but - and as a symptom of peri-M! - I can't for the life of me remember! I think it all began when I became interested in essential oils and started reading about which oils helped for this and that. The more I read, I was like, Yeah! That's me! I have that symptom and that one, and that one, too! Out of like 40 symptoms of peri-M, I've had at least half of them once. Some symptoms I have quite frequently.
For instance, my first night sweat? Y'all, I swear to you I thought I had peed in the bed! I woke up in the middle of the night and I had sweat FLOWING down my legs!! Y'all know how a glass of ice tea sweats in the heat? Yea, well, that was me at like 2:00 in the morning! It scared me because I was like, OMG! What have I done to myself? My pajamas were soaked and so were the sheets on my side of the bed. Wayne was still snoring away! I knew I hadn't used the bathroom on myself because I had to actually go to the bathroom. I changed clothes and went and got on the couch until it was time to get up, thinking, What in the world just happened?
My first hot flash? I was at the office working at my computer and all of a sudden, I thought I was on fire! I didn't really break out into a sweat, but I had that rush of heat from like the pit of my stomach and I felt like it blew out the top of my head! At the time, I chalked it up to possibly being my blood pressure, but I wasn't under any stress at the time, so I just thought it was weird. And maybe it wasn't even a full blown hot flash! Who knows?
My more frequent symptoms are headaches/migraines, irritability, mood swings, insomnia (oh, how I hate you!), anxiety, bleeding gums, lack of focus, fatigue, and muscle aches. Yep, that about sums it up! My periods are still regular, some months are worse than others, but I haven't experienced anything that I would call a change. My martial relationship is still happy, too. IfyouknowwhatImean. My symptoms are more "emotional" right now than "physical" if that makes sense. Oh! And the fact that I feel like I am going INSANE sometimes!! Literally, like I have lost my mind!!
(And I apologize if this post is more TMI than what you were expecting. I hadn't intended to go this way with this discussion, either, but I got a nasty gram from the library and they want their book back, so I had to speed it up. I had really planned to take a more serious approach to this discussion, but honestly, I'm blaming my "just throwing it out there" attitude on the wonderful drugs I'm on right now! I apologize for the rambling.)
The point I'm trying to make with all this is that it's hell to get old. It's hell falling down the stairs and busting your you-know-what! You don't really realize just how big your you-know-what is until you're looking at yourself in the mirror with a goose egg the size of a softball and it's black. And I do mean black! A few years ago, I seriously thought this stage of my life was light years away. I really just didn't think about it. But now that I'm experiencing symptoms, it's such a downer.
So now that you know all about my peri-M self, I hope you have a great weekend! One that's free of stairs, free of painkillers, free of ice packs and Ace bandages, and free of menopause! Enjoy!