We attended the simulcast 30 miles away at a very nice Methodist Church. When we got there, it was pouring and lightening. The room was small and these wonderful women just kept coming in. Soon, more tables and chairs had to be added in the room to accommodate everyone, which was a good thing. But one of the most memorable moments for me was when all our sweet voices were praising and worshiping God, all of a sudden, the sun broke through the clouds and light filled the room and I just knew that God, in all His glory, was smiling down on us from Heaven. It was the moment I knew I was where I was suppose to be.
Beth's message was based on Ephesians 4:17-24. She challenged us to be better women of God for the sake of our daughters, our granddaughters, and for "all the baby girls that were being born today."
Before I had Alise, I was a very selfish and shallow person. In 2004, God and I began having "baby conversations." I knew that He just wanted me to yield to Him in faith and "give in" to the whole baby idea. But I still struggled so much with my own desires and I just told him, "God, what if I have a baby and they grow up and do something that totally embarrasses and humiliates me?!" And immediately I heard God say to me, "Laura, the absolute worst thing that your child could ever do is die not knowing Me." I was so speechless that I knew the only thing I could do was jump on the baby bandwagon.
I say all this because I was reminded this weekend how extremely important my spiritual role is as a mother. God has blessed me with this beautiful little girl and it's my job to teach her all the things that I've learned about God and his love for her. And because I now realize that the absolute worst thing would be for her to not know Him as her Lord and Savior. What would that say about me and the life that I live?
Alise has been asking me lately about baptism. The thought absolutely scares her to death and when she first started asking me about it, she told me that she never wanted to be baptised and that just broke my heart. So I've tried to explain to her that being baptised is a good thing and that it is a sign to everyone that Jesus lives in our heart. So now when we talk about it, she smiles instead of having this horrified look on her face. I still think that she is too young to make a decision now, but my prayer every day is that she will one day decide on salvation through Jesus Christ.