Wayne and I had a date tonight. We got a babysitter and went out to dinner and to the new Adam Sandler movie, "Click." It was a good movie (not for kids), but the overall message really hit home. It was about a dad that spent so much time away from his kids because he was always busy working. I don't want to be that way. I want Alise to always come first.
Someone once said that a Mother's life is 95% guilt. Right now, mine is more like 99.9%!! One of the best things my mother ever did for me was write in my first Mother's Day card that I was a "great mother." I try to keep reminding myself of that.
P.S. By the way, I didn't have a problem leaving Alise with a fourteen year old tonight. A friend of mine always use to say that she liked her baby sitters to be older because she "remembered how I was at 14." Well, I started babysitting when I was 14 and I turned out okay. I think Emily was good for Alise tonight. I think she had a good time.